Anxiety in a relationship.

Friday 17 July 2015

As a person who does suffer from anxiety and who is in a relationship I thought I would just list a few things some partners may incur when they start dating someone with anxiety. It's important to understand that these things I'm about to list are what I personally do because of my anxiety, not all anxiety sufferers do or say the same things: 

  • Having to apologise more times than necessary and sometimes apologising for nothing. 
  • Asking my partner "are you ok" throughout the day because the look on their face or the way they're acting towards me makes me feel like something is wrong.
  • Phoning my cab for me or going to the shop to get us food because I'm too anxious to do it myself/go with him.
  • Repeating myself over and over again just so they don't forget what I said because there is no doubt I would if I was the other way around.
  • Asking them to text me when they go to sleep or wake up because I have irrational fears that something bad could happen to either one of us. I need to hear/read/say I love you because of my irrational fear or I need to know that the are safe and well.
  • Every part of me sweats, especially my palms. They become so sweaty causing me to become anxious about being out in public and thinking I'm about to pass out (most times I am) or that someone can smell me sweating.
  • Asking my boyfriend to be reassuring as I get anxious about ridiculous things such as what people will think of the way I look.
  • I'm always early, I get worried in case I'm late. When I do end up being late I go into panic mode and my anxiety goes through the roof.
  • I get nervous about seeing people who I have known for ages or having to leave the house at all. I still get nervous about going to see my boyfriend, I have no idea why.
  • Too anxious and scared to have nights out with mates, unless I'm with someone who can tell I'm getting too anxious/or feeling faint and want to leave.
  • I cry a lot, sometimes for no reason but after I've cried it helps and I end up relaxing a lot more.
  • I go silent a lot, not because I'm moody but because an anxiety attack is coming on, so when people accuse me of being moody with them it just makes me feel uncomfortable and as if I'm in the wrong.
  • Eating at a restaurant is a huge thing for me, I hate eating around strangers and people staring at me it makes me feel like I'm being judged. So when I finally do it, it's like a big achievement for me and I end up breathing a sigh of relief when it's over.
  • I like to be close to my boyfriend, some would say it is clingy but I don't do it all the time only when I feel like a good huge and a kiss will help (which it does). Other times I can be distant and act like I'm uninterested but that's just me having a thousand things running around my mind, it doesn't mean I'm not interested in him anymore.

I'm thankful that I have a very loving and understanding boyfriend who looks after me when I'm not feeling well. Knows what to do when I faint and understands that I have anxiety as well as depression. But what you have to remember is you can't always rely on your other half to take care of you, you need to try and take care of yourself, self care is important;

What is self care? 

Self care kind of explains it's self in the name, it means looking after yourself in a healthy way, it can be from eating to brushing your teeth or event taking your medicine when ill, self care comes from you caring for yourself. You don't have to push yourself to do anything you can't do, instead do the things you can do or the things you enjoy, but trying to stay healthy is one of the main things. Personally for me when I eat rubbish food it makes me feel worse, so by eating more healthy it makes me feel a bit better. I understand it can be a big step to make to have self care, believe me there were times I just gave up on it, I ended up being a shell of myself. But over the past few years I have realised that even though I can get help from doctors I also need to help myself. It's all well and good being told I need to take a certain medication to help with something, but that's not going to do anything if I don't take the medicine when i'm suppose to, or if i'm barely getting enough fluids. Don't be afraid of helping yourself, you may feel like you will fail but life it's about trial and error, not everyone is going to be able to do something for the first time so don't beat yourself up over it!


Comments

  1. You sound like you have a great boyfriend! But you're right, you also have to know that you'd be okay without a significant other. Stopping by from Spoonie Bloggers and Vloggers!

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    1. He is a sweetheart! Exactly, I'm sure I would be just the same without him but it's nice to know I have someone who puts up with it x

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  2. I completely relate to your list, and am also thankful to have an understanding and caring partner. My husband doesn't question when I randomly cry or ask why I have night anxiety. He just comforts me. It's comforting to have that without being questioned because many times I don't know why the tears or fears wax and wane.

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  3. It's so nice to hear about it from other peoples points of view, kinda makes me feel like i'm not the only one who does it and makes me feel a lot better. I will be sure to link it up thank you :D xx

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  4. Anxiety is so frustrating in a relationship- both for you and for your partner. I have anxiety problems when I'm glutened and it's so hard to separate my anxiety from my real concerns. Plus, it's hard to explain what I'm even worried about because it's usually actually nothing! <3 So sorry you go through this as well.

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    1. Don't be sorry it's nice not being alone when it comes to this, I find talking to people online easier than others in my life, I hope you're ok xxx

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  5. I can relate to this so much! Me and my boyfriend both suffer with quite severe anxiety so even though we both know just how difficult it is, it can still cause a lot of stress in the relationship. I'm incredibly lucky that my boyfriend is so supportive and we can both help each other through it!
    I love how you included the self care aspect, I completely agree with everything you've said!
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    1. It's nice that you can both help each other in different ways though :) I have times where my anxiety gets so bad that my bf doesn't know what to do but he always manages to cheer me up with a huge, just hold me helps a lot. Self are is very important I use to think why bother doing anything when I don't care about the way I look but it made me ill, hope you have a good weekend xxx

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