boob pains.

Before I talk about what this blog post is to do with I would just like to say it's not a sexual post so if that is what you're hoping for, I'm sorry! Now lets get back to the post, a few months back I started to get an aching pain in my boo, I thought nothing of it as my boobs get achy when I'm due on my period, then after 3 weeks the pain got worse and my boob started to feel like it was burning. I tried my best to put it to the back of my mind but when it started to swell and I could feel a little lump I freaked out a little bit.

I put off going to the doctors for about 4 months, I shouldn't of done this as the longer I left it the worst the pain was. Eventually I gave in and booked a doctors appointment which was then cancelled and moved back another week, which meant I had to wait 3 more weeks for my doctors appointment, 3 more weeks of freaking out and worrying. The weeks flew by an d I had my appointment, I found out it wasn't with my normal GP as he was off sick so I was a little freaked out about a different doctor examining me. He was a very young doctor and reassured me that I shouldn't be embarrassed about the examination as it would be over in no time (which it was). As he was doing the examination I could feel the pain in my boob worsen so he decided not to push too hard, after he had finished he explained to me that the breast tissue does feel lumpy but soft which is a good sign and he couldn't feel no hard lumps. He explained that my coil could be the main course of this pain and that I couldn't get it removed yet until they rule out the coil being the cause, he referred me to a breast clinic who called me within 3 days of my doctors appointment and booked me in the breast clinic for the 21st of this month (yesterday).

My appointment has now been and gone, I was told there could be a 4 hour wait to be seen but luckily within 30 minutes of getting there I was seen and tested, I was also told I was getting a mammogram but later on found out I'm not old enough for one, you have to be 40 for a mammogram so I had an ultra sound instead. Before my ultra sound I saw the consultant who checked both my breasts and told me they feel very lumpy and she thinks my Mirena coil is the main cause of the pain. I went in to have my ultra sound and everything was clear, My breast tissue is inflamed and it is most likely down to the coil. I'm waiting for an appointment with the GP so I can sort out getting my coil removed. If the pain in my boob doesn't stop after the coil is removed I will unfortunately have to find a way to help the pain myself. I have to say it is a huge relief that everything that came back was clear, I'm not looking forward to getting the coil removed but I am looking forward to having my body back, since I have had this coil my weight has gone crazy, so hopefully I will be able to lose the weight again. This isn't the only issue I have had since having my coil fitted, I get terrible cramps and heavy bleeding, it has made my dizziness a lot worse and on top of that it's painful to do certain activities.

If you do have the Mirena in and you're getting pains in your breasts get it checked out, it could mean that it's not working for you and you may need to find another form of contraceptive that does work for you. I've decided I will go back on the pill, not sure which one it will be yet and hopefully it doesn't cause me any hormonal or weight gain issues! Has any one else had any problems with the Mirena coil before? I hope you all have a wonderful Christmas and a Happy New Year!

Affordable Matt lip?

I love lipstick, but my biggest pet peeve is when I want to kiss, eat or even drink and it comes off,so I went on the hunt for some affordable matt lip colours. I popped into my local Superdrug and started my search. There wasn't much of a selection which I was disappointed with but I did managed to find a lip butter by Collection which happened to be matt. I was ecstatic and not really sure what colour to go for, one of the girls who worked in Superdrug suggested I try pumpkin pie, which was a wonderful shade on me (actually one of my favourite colours right now). This lip butter is pretty cheap, at £2.99 for a matt lip butter it's the cheapest one I have seen, I'm not sure how long these have been around but I'm glad that I have found them. The staying power of this butter is all right, it's best to use on lips that aren't dry other wise it will look very flaky once it dries on your lips, it has great pigmentation and is very easy to apply (although my lip butter keeps falling out) you can wear it very lightly on your lips or go over it a few times to get a more bright and dramatic colour, it has also made my lips very dry which I suppose I can't complain about seeing as it was so cheap. The biggest downside is the staying power isn't great it lasts about 2 hours, 3 at best and it comes off pretty fast if you're eating and drinking, overall I give this a 3/5, it's great for the price.

Next is Bourjois Rouge edition Velvet, This is my favourite out of the two, you apply it like a lipgloss and it goes on like a lipgloss but dries matt, I chose a deep red called red-volution (nice play on words there). Again it's best to not apply this on dry lips, it doesn't look as smooth and nice otherwise. This costs £8.99 which is still affordable and not too over priced in my opinion, they have wonderful staying power, I ate and drank and the colour stayed on for about 4 hours before it started to fade properly which is a let down as Boujois claim it has a 24 hour hold, although it stays on well it still comes off on glasses when drinking and can smudge, they also come in 15 different shades and are available to buy in boots, Superdrug and pharmacies which stock make up. I would love to try more shades and give this 4/5.

Ignore my bad eyebrows, I can't be bothered to sort them yet, if anyone has any other affordable matt lipsticks they can recommend me please leave a comment!

8 Photos of Happiness Tag.

I was tagged by the lovely Tania over at When Tania talks to Post 8 photos of happiness Tag, This one was hard for me to do because a lot of my photos are on a hard drive which I can't find but anyways here are the rules:

Rules and explanations of this tag

Thank your nominator/s and link them in your post.

Link the creator:  WHEN TANIA TALKS

Post your 8 photos of happiness (the photos can be anything that represents a moment, object, place or feeling that makes you happy).

Pop in a brief description of the photo, why you chose it or let the photos do the talking.

Spread the happiness and tag up to 10 other bloggers.

1. This was back in 2009 when it snowed on February 3rd, it has snowed in years since (except last year) and I can remember how I ended up building the snowman by the back gate so no one could open or close it and the next day someone has knocked it over.

2. I went to Dairyland and come across this little piggy who broke the rules and couldn't decide if it wanted to be inside or outside the gate, the little cutie kept walking under the bottom bar.

3. This was not long after I got Gizzy, this picture always makes me smile because she was rolling around on the bath matt looking too cute for words, she is the best little cat I could ask for!! 

4. I went to Bath to see The Roman Baths which I have wanted to see for years, they were beautiful! I love old buildings I find it fascinating and love hearing about their history.

5. These two Alpacas making funny faces, I love Alpacas, they are one of my favourite animals. I came across these one day when I was out with my parents, it was alpaca day in a field next to the Griggs store.

6. My sister Stephanie and I as babies, this is one my favourite pictures of her and me together, she always gave me kisses. We are only a year apart and have grown up very close.

7. This is Bodmin moore, me and a few friends decided to go hunt for some snow! This was in February and even though it was freezing and I fell over chasing sheep I had a great day, I even went to see some caves.

8. Last but not least, This picture of James and me. I love it! It was taken at his best friends wedding and is one of the first pictures we took together.

I tag:
Nicole from Mrs Jeebys survival kit
Claire from Life of Claire Jones
Lauren from Sweetened Sour
Kirsty from Lipstick and Coffees

10 Christmas activities for couples.

This year I shall be cooking James and I are spending Christmas together, I'm really excited because he actually suggested it and I feel it's a great opportunity to get to know him even better! My main problem on Christmas is that I don't want to be stuck in front of the TV or the oven most of the day, I want to have some fun activities for both of us too do, So here are a few that sound fun!

1. Treasure hunt.
I know that this sounds pretty childish but I actually love treasure hunts, especially Easter hunts! So my idea for this is too leave little clues around the house or room along side little sweets or a tree decoration and once they have found the treasure it could be an extra present, drink, dessert or a movie.

2. Baking!
I know Christmas day is full of sooo much food but I thought why not get a build your own ginger bread house kit, or a cake kit and cook together, I love baking with James we are always baking yummy goodies and I was thinking about baking chocolate brownies together and having them for our main dessert after Christmas dinner.

3. Christmas movie clip game.
I may not love Christmas movies but it would be great fun to mash together some little clips from Christmas movie and have your other half try and guess which movie it is, I'm sure a lot of people will say Home Alone several times before finally getting it right!

4. Pin the nose on the reindeer.
Yes this is a kids game but after a fair few drinks it's bound to be extremely fun and funny, the loser has to do the washing up!

5. Get a disposable camera.
I love this idea, buy a disposable camera and snap funny, cute, weird pictures of you and your other half together, once they are developed you can use some of the pictures to make your own calender or advent calender for the next year!

6. Old school gaming.
If you have old school consoles such as the N64 or dreamcast, get it out and have a gaming session with your other half, for me it would bring back some great memories of my childhood and hopefully James will let me win!

7. Build a fort.
Get inside the fort with a mug of hot chocolate whilst having a nice natter or even a nap, I know I said I don't want to be stuck in front of the TV all day but watching a Christmas movie from inside of a fort sounds wonderful.

8. A jar full of notes.
On the run up to Christmas, both write 25 highlights from your year and stick them in a jar, before you do be sure to put your initial on the back so your other half reads the ones with your initials, then chat about why they were your highlights.

9. Go for a stroll.
I prefer going for a little walk before dinner is cooked, I end up feeling so full and bloated after so it makes me not want to go anywhere. But just enjoy the silence around you, normally there is hardly anyone about on Christmas day which makes it perfect for you to appreciate your surroundings just a bit more.

10. Make your own crackers to use for new years day.
I don't know if anyone else does this, but my family normally have crackers left over from Christmas or they buy extra so we can use them on boxing day and new years at dinner time, I would love to make my own just so they have extra little gifts in for my partner.

I'm not lazy, I have a chronic illness.

When people tell me I look perfectly normal and that there is nothing wrong with me I always end up rolling my eyes so far to the back of my head that they get stuck (ok nearly all the way to the back of my head). I have an invisible chronic illness, meaning mine isn't physical, mine is only physical when I pass out which I try to hide form others, how do I hide it? I try and avoid going most places that involve me having to stand up, such as shopping, hanging out with friends, going out for drinks if there is no where to sit or rest I won't be there. There have been many times that I have tried to push on and make myself stand but this only makes things worse for me, I get terrible headaches and feel sick (even end up being sick) I feel dizzy every single day of my life.

I get told that surely they can do something to make me better, just take medication and you will be fine. That isn't how it works, it's a long and stressful road trying to control a chronic illness, especially now my cardiologist has told me he can no longer do anything to help me, I feel lost and have no idea what I'm suppose to do now. I just want to be normal, I want be able to hang out with people with out having to find a chair to sit down on, or lie on the floor, I want to be a normal 27 year old. My main problem is that I have a chronic illness as well as a heart condition and the two don't mix together at all, I was talking to someone a few years back who said and I quote "why not just use a wheelchair if you faint standing up all the time", that really isn't the answer for me, I faint sitting and standing, bathing or showing, my Neurocardiogenic syncope has got worse the older I get and all I want is to have some control over my body.

I put on weight and then I lose it, exercising is very hard and exhausting for me, right now I'm trying to lose weight again because after my pregnancy I gained weight very quickly, HG (Hyperemesis Gravidarum) may of made me lose weight due to throwing up constantly but as soon as I had the termination the weight came back very fast even though I wasn't eating that much at the time, now I'm eating normal meals (trying to at least). I keep getting told to get up and move around and stop being lazy, apparently I'm making myself more ill by being lazy when in reality it's bloody hard to get up and move around, I cry, I get depressed, I take my anger out on others but at the end of the day It's not me being lazy, It's me trying to not faint on a day to day basis. 

I do have a wonderful support network and my boyfriend doesn't make a big deal when I faint, he treats me just like I have tripped or something which I like because I don't want attention drawn to the fact I have NCS I just want people to understand that I have it, I can't change it and when I can't go somewhere It's not because I can't be bothered, It's because my body can't deal with it. So if you're a friend or family member reading this, please don't get mad at me if I can't come and visit, or come on that shopping trip you wanted us to take, If I say I'm not feeling up to it, It's the truth, It's not me being lazy. I feel so much better for getting that off my chest!

Things girls who game are sick of hearing and being told.

I'm a girl and I game, I enjoy it and it helps me unwind especially when I'm feeling stressed or annoyed at someone I can just shoot an enemy in a game and I feel better, I wouldn't do that in real life though (haha). Whenever I play a game online, go shopping or tell someone I play video games I had so many annoying things said to me, things I'm sick to death of hearing and being told, here are just a few of them:

1. You're an n00b player because you're a girl - because my gender obviously means I'm crap at a game.

2. You do realise this is an online game right? - oh really? Of course, I didn't realise the game I'm wanting to buy and wanted for a while was an online game, how stupid of me!

3. Your boyfriend is a lucky guy! - this game is for me, not my boyfriend, I want to play it!

4. I bet you're just a man pretending to be a girl so more guys play online with you - no, I'm a girl and I couldn't care less about playing online with other guys, leave me alone.

5. It's so nice that you join in with your boyfriend when he plays a game, I bet you find it hard to know which buttons to press - really? I'm playing with my boyfriend because I enjoy gaming with him and of course, I know how to use a controller.

6. Girl gamers are fake and don't know how to game - this infuriates me to no end, When it comes to gaming gender shouldn't matter we are all gamers, you don't see me saying boy gamers suck do you?

7. Get back in the kitchen - I probably will be going back in the kitchen to get myself some smacks and to cook for myself, which by the sounds of it you're incapable of doing for yourself.

8. You don't own a PC, You're not really a gamer - I'm sorry but not just PC gamers are gamers, some people have a certain preference. I can't fit a PC in my room so I mostly play my PS4.

9. I'm going to find you and rape you - this is one of the worst things someone has said to me online whilst gaming, I blocked them of course but it's a ridiculous thing to say or even think just because someone killed you in a game.

10. Boy gamers are better than girl gamers - I'm sure some guys are better at games than some girls but don't be a twat and make out that men are superior at gaming compared to women.

If you're playing with a girl online, try being respectful and talking to them nicely, because at the end of the day we are all part of a gaming family! Why not tell me what kinds of things you're sick of hearing and being told because you're a gamer!

Husk Table Ware by OLPRO*

* I was sent these products to review and have given my honest thoughts on them, all opinions are mine and mine alone.

Olpro is a leading UK camping and outdoor equipment manufacturer who is launching a new range of eco-friendly, microwaveable tableware which is created from rice husk, they have created this September. I was lucky enough to receive two husk break time beakers, other products from the range include mugs, tumblers, plates, cutlery, bowls and sets of round or rectangular storage, they also come with kitchen accessories. These products will be available to buy in complete sets as well as individual items, the prices range from £2.99 for a tumbler to £34.999 for a set of storage boxes, the complete set is £58.99, these beakers I received are currently on sale for £4.19 (was £5.99).

The great thing about these products is that they are created from discarded rice following the rice harvest, this makes the husk products very environmentally friendly and biodegradable. They are very affordable and can be used safely in the microwave, unlike any melamine tableware.

Rice Husk is an agricultural waste, annually our worlds rice production is about 500 million tons, of this, the ratio of rice husk to rice is about 1:4 which is equivalent to about 125 million tons of rice husks produced a year (that's a lot!). this makes it a perfect alternative to plastic products as plastic can take up to thousands of years to bio-grade in a natural environment, this produces poisonous toxins and particles will also be released into the ground over time. But by switching to a product like Husks, it can be turned into natural compost in about 90+ days. What does this mean? Using Husks can revive waste, instead of deposing of the 125 million tons husks as agricultural wastes the husks are revived into an entirely new product, giving it a new lease off life on earth as a natural material dining ware. Reduced pollution; burning the agricultural waste can be toxic and releases substances such as sulfur dioxide, silicon dioxide, and inhalable particles into the air we breathe and this contributes to the global warming effect. It's Reusable, A lot of the time once a person has used a plastic container it's thrown away and they end up in landfills. These materials take between hundreds and thousands of years to bio-degrade as I said before, whereas OLPRO Husk products are durable and can be reused for many many years. The material contains 80% Husks and 20% starch, which means it is easily biodegradable when it ends up in landfills after completing its life-cycle. By using products like this it helps to conserve our natural racecourses such as oil, metal, wood, and water. Hopefully, this will create a new demand, meaning products made from agricultural waste create new demands for more biodegradable products which in turn help our economy. These beakers hold in heat very well and I love how simplistic they are, as you can see I mixed and matched mine in the last picture. The hand grip comes off so you can clean it separately, why not check out OLPRO's products HERE.

Christmas presents for gamer boyfriends.

Men can be difficult to buy for, especially if they play video games and you don't, luckily for me James and I game together and I know what he likes but for those of you who are a little baffled Don't worry! As of now my boyfriends favourite game is Destiny, he also loves the Tomb Raider games, COD and adores Star wars, he is an avid PS4 gamer but use to play his PC more than anything. I decided to put together a collection of presents that your gamer boyfriend may like!

The 20th Anniversary PS4 controller:
This is a present that even I want, it is top of my boyfriends wish list and perfect for playstation lovers, especially those who owned the first PS1.

Destiny 3D printed Ghost
If your other half loves Destiny then this would be a perfect present to get them, I plan on getting myself one eventually!
My Geek box
My geek box is a monthly subscription box filled with all sorts of geeky treats you can also order products from them that they usually put in their subscription boxes, which will be great for a stocking filler! 

Logitech G502 Proteus Core mouse
This mouse is an all purpose mouse, it has 11 programmable buttons and weight and balance adjustments, perfect for PC gaming.

Man Crates
These are so cool, I want one for myself! You can choose from a number of different crates but I chose the retro gamer one for this post, it's a crate packed full of goodies and sweets and even comes with a retro-bit NES console, how cool is that?
Tetris stackable lamp:
This lamp is awesome, I like the fact that you can actually play Tetris with it. I know a few of my friends have this, I'm only slightly jealous.

Boyfriend & Girlfriend Tag.

I'm not sure where I found these questions but I decided to do a fun little blog post where both James and I answer the questions, I know people usually do these in Youtube videos but I'm not a Vlogger so here goes:

1. Where did we meet? 
Both: We met on Tinder, It's a dating app

2. Where was our first date?
Me: We was meant to go bowling but ended up going to wetherspoons, then to the cinema and back to wetherspoons to have a meal, we had 3 dates in one day. 
James: wetherspoons for a drink.

3. What was your first impression of me ? 
Me: James is a very funny and friendly guy, he has the ability to make me feel very comfortable even when I was anxious when I first met him. 
James: Quiet slightly embarrassed I guess?

4. When did you meet the family?
Me: I met them about a month into our relationship.
James: Roughly a month into the relationship.

5. Weird habit that you notice each other do? 
Me: repeating the same catch phrase all the time.
James: chewing on her nails.

6. How long have we been together? 
Both: 8 Months, nearly 9.

7. Do we have any traditions? 
Both: On Wednesday we go cinema and have a roast on Sunday's.

8. First thing you noticed about me?
Me: He has a really cute smile and lovely blue eyes, he is funny and smart which attracts me a lot.
James: She was/still is pretty and her smile caught my attention straight away.

9. What pisses her/him off?
Me: When I'm in a pissy mood because I ended up being so negative and annoying (which I can openly admit) Oh and when the food we order tastes like crap.
James: My farting? The internet being slow and me waking her up early on Sunday mornings.

10. What do we argue about the most?
Me: I think I'm the one who argues the most, I do take things the wrong way and think he is being nasty to me when he is just joking about.
James: My farting again? When she thinks I'm being mean but I'm only messing about.

11. Who wears the pants in the relationship?
Me: both of us? 
 James: Elle does.

12. Do I have any weird obsessions? 
Me: James loves Sirloin steak, We eat it a lot.
James: Makeup, she has a lot of it.

13. If I'm watching TV, what am I watching?
Me: James would be watching Community, StarWars, Game of Thrones, gosh there are loads!
James: Elle would most likely watch anything with cats in it and judge rinder.

14. What is one talent that I have?
Me: He is really really good at maths.
James: cooking and crafty stuff, the headbands you make.

15. My favourite kind of music?
Me: The prodigy
James: gangster rap.

16. What can I spend hours doing?
Me: Most likely sleeping or playing video games. 
James: kindle? Bath?

17. My favourite kind of sandwich? 
Me: I think it would be a bacon sandwich but he would pick a pasty over a sandwich.
James: chicken or prawns?

18. Something she/he does that you wish she/he didn't? 
Me: He takes ages to cut his toe nails and stabs me with them.
James: farting and getting in a mood/strop so easily and quickly. 

19. What is one food that I do not like?
Me: He will eat anything except liver and stew.
James: Mushrooms and peppers.

20. Favourite food? 
Me: He loves chicken.
James: Chinese. 

If you want to do this feel free, I tag everyone!

My Christmas wish list

I logged onto Facebook this morning to see that there are only 7 more weeks until Christmas, it made me cringe mostly because it was a minions meme picture (I really don't like the minions). I started to panic because I'm not prepared at all, I've only just finished getting James's birthday presents for this month and now I have to rack my brains for what to get other people, I hate going into town when loads of people about and Christmas is the one time of year that people turn even crazier when it comes to shopping, so I will be shopping online! I have put together my Christmas wishlist now because I understand how difficult I can be when people want to buy me a present:

1. Fallout 4 // 2. Assassins Creed Syndicate

 3. Kindle Hd fire 6 case // 4. Matt Haig: Reasons to stay alive book
 5. Lee Stafford curl chopstick // 6. Magnitone facial cleanser
7. Freya Hypnotise Plunge Balcony Bra // 8. Lepel Fiore Plunge Bra

9. Samsung Galaxy S6 (a girl can dream) // 10. Sky Blue Radiant Hearts Pandora charm.
11. Vera Wang Princess Eau de Toilette 30ml // 12. Lacoste Touch of Pink Eau de Toilette 30ml

I have just realised that It's a pretty big wishlist, probably the biggest one I have ever made for Christmas, I hope you all had a great Halloween!

Myths about acne

When I reached 15 I suffered pretty badly with acne, I don't mean a little spot here or there I mean my whole face was covered in spots, my face was so red and sore that it would hurt to touch. I was too embarrassed to go to the doctors for it and I would use my sisters make up to try and cover it, big mistake! I would just keep piling it on and for someone who knew nothing about make up I was just making matters worse. I eventually stopped picking the spots, by the time I was about 17 my flare ups had stopped and I had learned how to apply make up properly to my face as well as keeping it as clean as I could. I still to this day get terrible break outs and I'm 27 now, so I'm pretty use to having spots. People often try to give me ridiculous advice on how to get rid of spots and tell me that certain things will help, when in fact most of these things are myths, here are just a few:

1. The more you wash your face the fewer breakouts you get:
Washing your face does help remove dirt but washing it too much can irritate it and lead to dryness which can cause more breakouts. Gently wash your face, don't scrub it you will just end up with angry irritated skin if you scrub it. Try to keep it clean by washing it twice a day and keep it moisturised to avoid dryness.

2. Give your skin some sun:
I use to be told this constantly and all it ever did was mask my spots they came back twice as bad after a few days and more angry than ever. The sun if anything can cause premature ageing and skin cancer so it's best to try and get as little sun as you can, remember to always wear sun protection even if it's a foundation with sun protection in when using one for your face use one that has noncomedogeic or nonacnegenic on as it doesn't clog your pores.

3. Adults don't get acne:
Well this is a huge lie, I'm 27 and having a really bad breakout as I type this, people seem to think spots or acne are only a hormone thing teenagers get when in fact that's not the case, People can be pretty harsh when they tell you that adults don't get acne so I normally tell them to do some research and mind their own business.

4. Touching your face will spread spots:
Bacteria deep in your pores is what causes your acne or spots, so touching the surface of your skin won't spread the spots not unless you pop the spot and put your fingers back on your face without washing your hands.

5. Leave your acne alone it will go away in time:
They say if you pick or pop your spots that is the only way acne can scar, this isn't true. Leaving it can leave permanent scar which could be avoided by getting treatment and scare you need, you may be too embarrassed to go see a doctor about it like I was but please don't suffer in silence.

6. Use toothpaste on your spots, it will make them go away faster:
People say toothpaste dries out a spot which will get rid of it, I'm guilty of doing this. The reason why you shouldn't use toothpaste on your skin is because toothpaste has menthol in which can cause irritation, itching and inflammation of the skin, please don't use toothpaste, your skin doesn't deserve to be put through more pain.