My baby story,

I haven't been on here in a while, well more then a while! I've had a busy few months my life changed for a few of them months in a big way because i found out in October i was pregnant:

i found out i was about 4 weeks along. I was really excited and looking forward to bringing a little mini me into the world. I started to plan on getting a place with Chris as soon as we could and made a list of baby stuff. But by week 7 of my pregnancy i ended up with server morning sickness, i couldn't keep anything down not even water. 

I eventually went to the doctors and they told me i was very dehydrated and i had to go into hospital to be put on a drip so they could pumped fluids back into me and give me medication to help with the sickness. The hospital told me i had something called Hyperemesis Gravidarum.

Hyperemesis Gravidarum (HG) is a condition at the extreme end of the pregnancy sickness spectrum. It affects only 1% of women with pregnancy sickness and is extremely unpleasant for sufferers. In some cases women end up having it for the whole of their pregnancy. In my case i ended up having it up until week 11. I was nearly at 12 weeks when i lost the baby. 
I had a very very bad expierence with pregnancy and all together ended up being in hospital 3 different times for my HG. Whilst i was in hospital i would end up crying at night because i felt like i was dying and my boyfriend wasn't around to give me any support. But through out the whole of my pregnancy and sickness my parents helped me, they took me to hospital made sure that i was ok and brought be all the stuff i needed. 

My GP told me that i can go on to have another baby but doesn't advise doing it anytime soon because i have been so ill and i lost the baby, i even ended up losing 19lbs due to the sickness sure losing weight is great but wasn't so great whilst being pregnant! The GP said there is a very very big chance of me having HG again with my next pregnancy so he advises me to go see him before i try for another baby so he can get my body prepared for it again and so i will be able to cope better with the HG.

I really admire women who are able to cope with HG because it is the worst feeling in the world, it's horrible not being able to enjoy being pregnant and crying all the time because you're just to weak to do anything! But hopefully fingers crossed with my next child i don't have HG. 

I'm just happy i have a scan to remember my baby by and the memory of having my scan and seeing the baby move around and hearing it's little heart beat, it was done when i was 9 weeks and 1 day pregnant. You cant see it very well but i can see the baby clearly:

After i lost the baby and came out of hospital i wanted to do something nice to say good bye to the baby which i called baby kitty kat kattner when i was pregnant (kattner is my boyfriends last name) so my parents got me a balloon to put a nice message on and send off into the sky, which was lovely:

I still am really upset about everything that has happened it's only been just over two weeks, but i will have another baby again one day and i wont ever forget my experience or the baby, and hopefully 2013 will be a nice fresh start for me with good things to come.


Neurocardiogenic syncope (NCS)

Seeing as September 10-16th is National Invisible chronic illness awareness week, I have decided to do a blog about my condition NCS and the effects it has on my everyday life. It's not a very well known condition and a lot of people think I'm lying when I tell them about it. When I was younger I would always move about when I would stand up so I wouldn't feel dizzy and faint, so I had always known I was little strange when it came to standing still but I never told anyone because I didn't think it was a big deal or anything. It wasn't until I was 13 (standing in the check out line at the airport) that I properly fainted, I fainted once and my sister helped me back up and fainted a second time. My parents thought it was because of all the police at the airport and because it was just 2 days after 9/11 happened, they really thought I was scared. I didn't tell them that I had been feeling dizzy most of that day and that I just couldn't stop myself from fainting in the line.

Anyways time passed and I had a very hard time queuing up in lines and school and doing P.E. That was the hardest thing I did in school. I use to have to sit out a lot and couldn't run around much. But as time went by my dizziness and fainting got worse I still didn't tell anyone because I felt it was just stupid and no one would believe me. But when we first moved to Cornwall I finally told my parents about how over the years I've had these dizzy fainting spells and that is has got worse. My stepdad booked me in for an appointment with the doctor and my doctor referred me to a heart consultant who told me that he would like to try me out on the tilt table test. For all you who don't know what one is I will explain:

A tilt table test is used to evaluate the cause of unexplained fainting (syncope). During a tilt table test, you lie on a table that moves from a horizontal to a vertical position. Your heart rate and blood pressure are monitored throughout the tilt table test. Your doctor may recommend a tilt table test if you've had repeated, unexplained episodes of fainting. A tilt table test may also be appropriate to investigate the cause of fainting if you've fainted only once, but another episode would put you at high risk of injury due to your work environment, medical history, age or other factors. Doctors use a tilt table test to help diagnose the cause of fainting. During the test, your blood pressure and heart rate are monitored. You begin by lying flat on a table. Straps are put around your body to hold you in place. Then, the table is tilted to raise your body to a head-up position — simulating a change in position from lying down to standing up. This test allows doctors to evaluate your body's cardiovascular response to the change in position.

Gizzy's adventure

Today i took Gizzy out in the garden on her Harness and she loved it!
(Even though she tried to run away)




I'm new to this i have no idea how to use it but i thought i would make one anyways.
I shall be blogging about clothes i like to wear (favourite outfits) and make up and games i enjoy playing on my PS3.

This is moi:

These are the fluffy kitties i live with


and Gizzy: