When a Movie Set's Out to Harm.

Monday 8 April 2019

I'm a huge movie lover, I have such a mixed genre selection I choose from that I'm usually overwhelmed with what to pick, one thing in particular that I am is open to what movies have to offer whether that's a movie about someone seeing the afterlife and coming back to life or it's a talking dog movie, sometimes you never know if you will like something unless you give it a go right? My friends who know me know I'm a huge fan of fantasy movies, I could sit and watch Lord of the Rings over and over again because I want to immerse myself in how wonderful that world is and I've just finished The Silmarillion which has made me appreciate Lord of The Rings that much more. Some may say that watching them kind of movies is childish and I should open my mind a bit more to watch movies that center around more pressing matters such as real-life situations. Over the past few days on Twitter, I've seen the uproar about one particular movie (Unplanned which was causing an uproar (I can see why now) I didn't look too much into it at first but I got a little curious and watched the trailer to see what the backlash is about.

I regret watching this trailer, since I have its caused me to have this sick feeling in the back of throat and brought back the horrid nightmares I used to have but I'm working through that, yes, you guessed it, it triggered me, this may seem very ridiculous to some people because it's just a trailer/movie but Unplanned is far from that it's something that been made to purposely hurt and upset those who are pro-choice as well as those who have gone through a termination. From what I gather it's supposed to be based on a true story about a young girl called Abby Johnson, who works at planned parenthood and assisted in over 22,000 terminations, one day she goes into a room and sees the procedure done and watches the ultrasound and what she see's changes her mind forever about working at planned parenthood and being pro-choice. I don't want to go into detail about what she apparently saw because it's not something I need to trigger others over.

Just by including this part in a trailer they have managed to set so many pro-lifers against those who are pro-choice and because of that, I made the choice to eventually mute the name of the movie and anything associated with it on Twitter. I'm not the kind of person to get upset easily but now and then when things appear especially near a holiday like Mother's day I do get upset, which is fine, I'm allowed too, it's one of the hardest holidays to get through when you have been through a crap time due to various reasons. Me being triggered by this trailer is nothing to do with guilt or regret, it's more to do with the fact that I was in a very dark place due to mine and that people all over the world every day are made out to be monsters for something that is and should be their choice, there are countries where abortion is still illegal and I thank my lucky stars every day that I was able to be given one in a safe and sterile environment due to living in the UK.

Before I muted the movie people were Retweeting and replying a tweet that Unplanned had put out and it made me laugh because it was a huge dig at planned parenthood, they felt smug about getting more twitter followers than planned parenthood but lets get something straight here, planned parenthood provides a lot of services to people and helps them and the only thing this movie is doing is pushing their propaganda on others and causing disgusting arguments between people across social media networks. Twitter numbers don't mean anything at the end of the day and a lot of people are scared to follow planned parenthood because of the backlash from pro-lifers.

The first time I was ever made to feel guilty for wanting to go ahead with a termination was when I was in the hospital, you see my pregnancy caused a lot of complications and the medical staff knew this but the still got someone to come up and talk to me about how my mind was in a bad place and perhaps I should consider holding out for a bit longer. By this point, I was weak upset and I just wanted to be left alone and said that even though this was something I didn't want to have to do, my health is what came first at the end of the day. I was suffering so badly with Hyperemesis Gravidarum and I felt like I was in a hole I couldn't get out of and saw myself drifting away further and further from who I was, I couldn't even do anything for myself let alone eat or drink. My doctor wasn't pleased that this was arranged and had stern words with the staff about arranging it, especially when the doctor and I had discussed what needed to happen. But there are many people who choose a termination not just because of health reasons or trauma they have gone through but just because they're not ready and that's ok, it's their choice.

Shame is something that stuck with me for so long and I had got myself through those feelings after years of feeling like a failure and shameful for thinking about my health so when I foolishly watched that trailer I essentially lived all the hurt and upset I went through again, a movie's purpose shouldn't be to shame people for something that should be available to them in anywhere in the world, it's purpose shouldn't be to push someones else's choice on to others by using shock tactics and manipulation. I've seen a few people saying what Abby saw was never the truth so I read up on what they meant by this and saw a few articles saying that she was being disciplined for poor performance so she took revenge by switching sides, but I personally don't know what my take on Abby is, what I do know is that she makes me feel uncomfortable and so does this movie.

I feel they should have taken into consideration how triggering a trailer can be but we all know they couldn't care less who this upsets. I honestly don't care if you go to watch the movie or whether you're pro-choice or pro-life because at the end of the day I'm not going to be one of those people to force my opinion on others like this movie is doing, the way it's being advertised shows that its purpose is to make you change your mind, it's propaganda and I don't welcome it one bit in my life. If you're a reader of mine who is pro-life, I don't hate you I just don't agree with you and I would hope you have the courtesy to understand how harmful this movie and topic can be for a lot of people so if you want to comment about being pro-life don't be hateful about those of us who are pro-choice, I won't tolerate it at the end of the day my feelings are valid and if something triggers me I'm going to speak out about it.


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